Distraction

Words so broken and unchanged...
Yes I'm speaking of words of love that seemed to turn to words of shame....
I love you falls short.....
I want to be yours doesnt matter....
Hearing words come out of your mouth and given to others....
I smile in your direction and cry when I turn away....
You will never know how I feel or what you mean to me...
I'll never get that chance but I am in your life....
I matter to you in some way...
In some way......
Confused on the inside.....
Faking strength on the outside.....
I need your words...
I need your touch....
I wish to matter more in your life more than I do now....
I wish to hear the words....
You made my day just by being here.....
Or your kiss turned my day around...
I just want a chance to know that feeling with you...
I want that chance to show you what I am capable of when it comes to giving you my love....
I don't know if you can really handle it...
I dont know if you even want to know what my love is....
To never know that chance kills me...
To be near you and not touch kills me....
I just cant handle it some days....
I dont kno what to do anymore...
I love you and i hate the situation....
I'm just the distraction

Spoken Outloud Silently.

Secretly guarding a heart so fragile...
Protected by kind words...
Words that can, hurt strike deep... 
Leaving those painful scars...
The worst unseen for those who say the words never care what harm they cause...
If you look you can see my scars...
The new ones the old ones and the forgotten ones...
This world seems to know pain more than it know happiness...
Everywhere you look someone is hurting...
Someone is broken...
Something that love seems to only be able to fix...
My scars pale when they are wrapped in love...
But, when that love is taken, they burn brighter than any known sun...
They cause me pain and bring back happy sad memories of what was and should have been...
Those precious moments taken form me and given to someone else...
What does one do...
We just hide it away and bear it until nothing has feeling and nothing in us is good...
I'm called angel but I'm nothing near what an angel is...
I fall and it hurts, I break and I burn...
I'm harmed and fall apart...
No....
No I am no angel...
I'm merely human and so am damageable...
Forgettable
I've never screamed and spoken so loudly in my silence...
When you look at me...
And I meet your eyes...
I probably need you right then and there...
Always always always look deeper...

Scatterd Thoughts and Broken Dreams...

Its one of those times when you need to breathe and you can't....
Need to be touched and you aren't....
Need to scream but you have no voice....
Need to run and have no where to go....
When you feel so alone that you feel like nothing more can hurt anymore....
Just please world stop...
Please quit taking the pieces before I come undone...
I'm out of time to fix those shiny pieces of broken dreams and broken heart so much pain and strife....
No more fighting....
Can I please just give up for awhile please just let me lay down...
Let me take the fight to another day another time...
Please just let me stop even for a minute...
Let me know the purest of joy and happiness....
Please let the world stop spinning for a day and let me just stop....
Let me lay down...
Just let me breathe.....
So many scattered thoughts, so many broken dreams....
Please help me some one please.....