Darkness

The feelings in me spin and careen out of control

Nothing to hold on to as I fall to my knees and scream

My palms are scraped and my feet are bleeding

Running down this path seems the only choice

The darkness is coming and I want to hide

The pain in my heart is immense and I can't handle it anymore

I don't want to feel what you lie about

I don't want to know the truths you hide away

The light near the end is nothing more than a flitting candle

I am so tired and can no longer hear my heart beat

Time to just lay down

Maybe the darkness is a welcoming force

I will wait here

What

I hate the way I think that you care

How could I even think that it would be possible

There is a vast open space between us

So much goes unsaid now 

We are not as we were

I miss the us that was

I should be used to this by now

It hurts every single time

What was I thinking

What was I thinking